I wanted to be a lawyer. And an artist. And a writer. And a Dallas Cowboys cheerleader. And a Soul Train dancer. Maybe even go on Solid Gold. Working in the this field never crossed my mind. I was the neighborhood choreographer for “fun.” I used my allowance to buy extra fruits and vegetables because I enjoyed them. I spent $60,000, getting two degrees, only to find out that I didn’t really want to work in social service and be a counselor.
But what I do is oh so personal. And each experience I’ve had along the way has prepared me for the work I am doing every day.
I was a quiet, shy child who enjoyed reading, sleeping, playing double dutch, writing and dancing. I didn’t eat much. I liked what I liked, had my share of sickness, got teased a lot and hid my fear of life and being who I really wanted to be (i.e. standing up for myself under quick witted responses and crying afterwards), pretending I didn’t care (hating myself privately) and ignoring people (isolating myself). Those are behaviors I held on to for years and they would eventually lead me to clash with myself.
The story is really very long and there are a lot of pieces I could put in there. But an early marriage (and divorce), the death of my son shortly after birth, a child with special needs, another husband, another child, life in three states, losing my house, filing bankruptcy, being shunned by family and friends for my choices in life and trying to stay above water (those are just the highlights) all in my 20’s nearly killed me. I was overweight, losing too much weight, anorexic, binge eating, drinking, staying out too late, angry, depressed, suicidal, desperate, broke, tired, faithless, you name it. And yet, a chance job making $5.15/hr. at a gym selling memberships changed the fate of my life and here I am, a lot of pounds away from that 232 I used to weigh and so so far away from the mindset of the woman who lived in that body. I honestly wouldn’t believe it would possible to change so much if I had not experienced it myself.
I know, you want to know HOW I lost the weight. I hate to be the bearer of bad news but it’s called HARD WORK. 🙂 No pills. No surgeries. I was a single parent when I first started (my son running out into a parking lot and me being too big to catch up is what started this whole thing ) and I had no money for a trainer. I am stickler for people believing in who THEY are not in what a PRODUCT can do for them. I do not claim to be perfect or have the perfect body but I KNOW it can be done and that’s why I’m out there, sharing what I know for SURE. I am no different than you. I’ve struggled. Sometimes I feel like I’m still gasping for air. I’ve had four surgeries in five and half years. I had a death take me to my knees. I was paralyzed with anxiety and couldn’t eat for two months. After having a hysterectomy, my hormones went haywire and my weight has been up and down and up and down. The past six months has been the biggest challenge of my life. Real talk: sometimes I just want to sit on the couch with a basket of french fries, some doughnuts and a Pepsi and be done with this whole thing. That feeling never lasts too long. It’s resilience, even now. When I look at that word I see, “I will NOT remain in silence.” My health is worth fighting for every day of the week. My feelings are fleeting. I stick with the facts. The fact is life isn’t going to slow down or get easier because I’m getting tired or want to stay in my same size jeans without work. I’m either going to commit to a healthier lifestyle now or be done with it. I’ve chosen to stay in it.
And if you have chosen to stay in it, I want to work with you.
I’ve been in this coaching/counseling field for over fifteen years and in the fitness industry for ten. It would be a privilege to get to know you and help tear down whatever brick wall you may have put up to keep your beautiful, bright, beaming self from shining. I offer one on one and group personal training and coaching (two different things but the combination together is AMAZING). I am also available virtually.
And, oh, I do still love to jump double dutch (if I can ever find a game down here), am originally from Chicago (South Side!), loooooove peanut butter, good music, dancing bachata, tea, Starbucks and dark chocolate almonds. 🙂
E-mail me at email@example.com. I’m ready if you’re ready.