Detox Day 7: Tired of Just Getting Through

Photo Jun 07, 9 00 24 AM

“But I’m here to tell you, there’s something else…..”

There HAS to be because this CAN’T be it.

I think as soon as I said, “Oh, I think I’m going to work on my life for 21 days,” Life said, “Really? Well, let me make it interesting.” I have been barely functioning.  I have been doing just enough to “get through,’ trying to hold up the crumbling walls of my body and mind and pretend that it’s all good when I really wanted to go out in the middle of the street and scream my head off.

“Getting through life” isn’t enough for me.  I want something else. 

Since I was bedridden with an ulcer flare-up and a nauseating migraine (keep in mind that I’ve had 3 children and NEVER had traditional “morning sickness” so nausea is a big deal),  I had a lot of time to think. I’ll be 41 years old in exactly a month.  I may have more years behind me than I do in front of me.  What do I want to do?  Am I o.k. with having this holding pattern I seem to be in? Am I o.k. with just “getting by” with a little bit of energy, a little bit of food, a little bit of friendship, a little bit of interest, a little bit of Jesus, a little bit of commitment, a little bit of light, a little bit of life?

Photo Jun 05, 5 01 24 PMAccording to the Oxford dictionary, detox is defined as a process or period of time in which one abstains from or rids the body of toxic or unhealthy substances. I may look a hot mess if you see me on the streets in the next couple of weeks or so but as I slim down my friends’ list (Facebook, Instagram and real life), I will re-emerge in my purest form and be ready to take on a new level of life.

“And if the elevator tries to break you down, go CRAZY.” Don’t give up.  Fight for your life. Punch a higher floor.

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One Response to Detox Day 7: Tired of Just Getting Through

  1. zaji says:

    Detoxing is typically unpleasant if done correctly. Sounds like you are doing a great job if you are feeling bad. I know, sounds crazy, but detoxing as it should be isn’t cute.