It’s January 28th.
Where in the world did an entire month go and WHAT have I been doing?
I remember having a kid with the flu. I remember having the flu. I remember having pneumonia. I remember Puerto Rico. I remember seeing my old house in Clarksville, Tennessee. School had to have started somewhere in there because my kids aren’t home during the day. I remember something about a polar vortex. I’ve been thinking about my friend Brandi who died this time last year. My niece was in ICU. My oldest nephew turned 19.
The rest of it is a blur. I haven’t done a thing.
Judging from what I’ve seen and have been told, a lot of other people haven’t either.
I hosted a 21 day journey to better health for over twenty women that just ended Saturday. It got real, mostly because we realized the one thing that people seem to forget even though we’ve all heard it a MILLION times. Resolutions are not exclusive to January. If you are really going to make some changes and do what you say you are going to do to get there, you better plant your feet in the sand and get ready for the long road trip. January is a great jump start and it’s attractive and enticing but it is NOT the end all. It’s just the beginning. And it can be the beginning of something wonderful if you are open to be encouraged by the possibilities instead of being discouraged by the path in front of you.
I HAVE to make some changes IMMEDIATELY to start planting seeds for what I want to see grow in the spring and summer. And I will be the FIRST to tell you…my mind isn’t there. But February is set to not give me time to sit around and contemplate WHY I’m not “in the mood.” I am speaking at my church (your testimony will set free and make space for others to share theirs and be set free) for one of our women’s ministry gatherings. I am speaking on the vegan/vegetarian lifestyle at the university where I work. I have added another Piloxing class (11:30 a.m. at the University Fitness Center) and will be hosting two community classes there, one Zumba (focused on women’s heart health) and one Piloxing (focused on helping keep our friends focused on their resolutions, details coming soon), I am dancing in the community, starting my choreography for the NEEMA Spring Recital, starting my half marathon training thanks to my coach Christy, the running rock star, continuing my yoga teacher training and going back to the list of things I neglected (remember that “one thing” post) in January and get back on track.
And it’s not that I’m busy. That’s not why I posted the list. I’m getting real about my life. I’m getting real about what I want to do and where I want to be and how I want to serve and being o.k. with saying “I want that.”
My friend Tim died from pneumonia in June. Every time I took a breath this month or couldn’t take one, I was afraid that I would never be able to run again. Or do yoga again. Or talk to my kids again. Or teach Zumba again. Or laugh again. I was afraid I was going to die. I kept asking my husband to wake me up in the middle of the night to make sure I was breathing.
So when people ask me why I do things or why I don’t do things it’s because I KNOW what I want for my life. And resolutions are pointless if you aren’t trying to create revolution in your life. I know what I used to have. And I don’t want that. I’m on that new thing.
Is it time for YOU to get real?