10 Years, 200 Pounds and a Vision

My beautiful baby girl turns 10 years old Monday.

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Her birth signifies a lot in my life.  She would be my last child and my only girl.  She was the only child I had without medication (oh my goodness), I had Hooters for the last time while I was in labor with her (true story) and it would mark one more thing in my life that I hope I never see again…

A “2” in front of my weight.

People are quPhoto Apr 24, 8 41 37 PMick to give you a “pass” when you’re pregnant.  Gaining weight “is” part of the package deal.  Eating like you’re a maniac is not.  And that’s what I did.  Pregnancy was a stressful time for me. I was a newlywed, living in a new city, with a child starting kindergarten and I was high risk.  The fear of her dying like my son Jordan weighed heavy on me.  I had headaches so bad that I couldn’t even get out of the bed for days.  I did the only thing that ever brought me consistent comfort: eat.  I ate myself back into the 200’s after trying so hard to get the weight off.  I went from 158 (the day of my engagement in August of 2002) to 218 the day before her birth (October, 2003).

 

It’s been a trying 10 years; a time of trying to find my way.

Shortly after her birth, I said good-bye to three more things: meat, anti-depressants and my last anorexic episode (which I had trying to get the weight off).  I look back now and wonder, “how in the world did I get here?” And I want to celebrate.  I mean REALLY celebrate because those things almost killed me.  I ate a lot of fried chicken and fish (deep fried), the last anorexic episode I had landed me in the ER (read about that here) and the last set of anti-depressants I took left me so suicidal that I almost killed myself and my children.

This is the year to celebrate my life.

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Months agoZumbathrowdown-68, I shared that a gentleman in the gym spoke a prophecy over me that shook me a little bit.  But, every day, when things come to fruition, I know it was true.  I was late for a meeting because he was talking to me me and that meeting was the beginning of what has now turned into my life as a community health coach.  He told me, “You are going to do things so big that people aren’t going to believe it.”  And let me tell you, they don’t. 🙂 I don’t believe it myself.   I don’t believe that I am in the position right now to encourage people to do what I could not do at one time.  I cannot believe that I do not have to shop in the plus size section or I can’t resist dessert or eat it without feeling guilty if I want it.  I can’t believe I’ve went ten years without hot wings. 🙂

 

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I believe that man’s words to be true.  God saved me for a reason.  Today, I’m ready to teach the Piloxing in Pink event, knowing that I’m making a difference, somewhere, somehow.

What are you doing that you didn’t think you could do?  And how are you sharing that with the world?

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2 Responses to 10 Years, 200 Pounds and a Vision

  1. LaQueena says:

    This was so encouraging. WOW I look at you and I never would have guessed you went through all that you had. I hope your little girl has a blessed birthday and I find it amazing what GOD has done in your life. You’re like the 3 Hebrew boys who went into the fire and came out and they didn’t even smell like smoke. You went through the fire and you don’t smell like smoke. You ended your blog by asking “What are you doing that you didn’t think you could do? And how are you sharing that with the world?” I never thought I could go back to school and finish. I’m a senior this year and I will be graduating in the fall. I’m a non-traditional student and now you have challenged me to share that with the world. Thank you and may GOD continue to bless you.

    • HipHealthyChick says:

      Thank you for this, Sister. God has definitely shown me favor through these trials. Congratulations to you on your accomplishment! That is fantastic! You look like a college girl so I wouldn’t have thought of you as “non-traditional.” 🙂 Thank YOU for sharing yourself with the world. Be blessed.