This week, I am preparing to attend my sixth MANIA event, held by SCW Fitness (formerly known as Sara City Workout). Not only have I come back EXTREMELY sore but I have been majorly inspired, found some awesome equipment, great music, met some fabulous people and got the opportunity to by some fabulous clothes that not everyone in town was wearing. I was introduced to Viveca Jensen at a MANIA and her fabulous program that is now changing my life (we call it PILOXING), I was actually certified in Piloxing at a MANIA event. I’ve met this little ball of fire named Laura Cisneros who happens to own a company named DYNAMAX. You know those big gray and black balls that everyone throws up the wall and slams down or the ones they use at Cross Fit? Yeah, those. She owns that company. Knowing her this year has rocked my world. I have also trained with Leslee Bender (Bender Balls), Jani Roberts (Zumba Toning QUEEN and total rock star), Mindy Mylrea (inventor of the gliding disc), Sarina Jain (creator of the Masala Bhangra workout), Lawrence Biscontini (just an overall mind body elite trainer) and quite a few other people who will probably be on the map soon. It is here where I learned about TRX, Trigger Point Therapy, the C.H.E.K. Institute and more.
In the past couple of weeks or so, I have been talking about fear and overcoming my mind’s desire to back away from anything that may really PUSH me. If you know me then you know that doesn’t really “sound” like me because I have a tendency to run straight into things might make or break me. But the truth is, certain challenges DO scare me and they are mostly the ones when I feel like people are watching me the most. When are people watching me the most? When I am in the fitness arena because this is what I say I do. And that pressure has built up on my back for so long because I started to doubt if I could really do a push-up or if I could really run a mile or if I was really tired after one track in Zumba. Or why can’t I swim? Why can’t I do an overhand grip pull up? And I’d talk myself out of trying. I was worried about failing in the eyes of people who saw me as “fit.” But what does fit REALLY mean? And what does other people’s opinion really mean? And where was this fear coming from? And what in the world could I do with all of that energy if I let ALL of that stuff GO?
Get to the business of living my life, of course.
These past two weeks, I have went from cautious to insane. I signed up and started swim lessons (paid for several of them in advance so I wouldn’t back out.) I signed up for a half marathon. I signed up for a 5K obstacle course. I convinced my friends (and myself) to do the Warrior Dash (did I mention how much I dislike mud?), am going to get a running group together to do a 5K here at home with my clients/students/friends (details to come) and……..I have decided to train for the Tough Mudder. One of my childhood friends invited me to do this with him in October (luckily, I mean, unfortunately, I was already committed to the something) so I looked it over. Oh My God…..I thought. Are these people nuts? He’s an ex-Marine so he could probably do that in his sleep but ME? a 10-12 mile obstacle course that includes icy water, jumping off of stuff, fire, CRAWLING through mud and walking through electrical currents? REALLY? When you sign up for the workouts, they ask you if you are afraid of three things. I was afraid of ALL three. Yet, I printed off the workouts and they are now staring at me. I don’t know if I am a maniac, having a mid life crisis or just tired of holding my own self back.
It’s time to go for it.
Step One: I am not going to “baby” myself at MANIA, which I have been known to do. I am always afraid I am going to run out of steam and look like a weakling so I don’t go full out all of the time. DUH! Who doesn’t run out of steam after 8-9 hours of working out? I am going to look at my list again, take classes that DO benefit what it is that I teach but do some other stuff that is TOTALLY out of my comfort zone.
Step Two: Continue to get comfortable being uncomfortable. I am going to continue to seek challenges that push me. This “running schedule” thing has been a challenge because, well, I am trying to “save” myself for other activities like work. But if I plan on making it 13 miles, I have to prepare for it, like I prepare for anything else. Other than work, I am a “fly by the seat of your pants” individual. I am working on that. It can’t happen that way. Not this time.
Step Three: Challenge you to come along. What’s your fear? What is it that you want to conquer?
With love and gratitude,